Good morning, good afternoon and good evening readers,

So I have been a bit out of touch with my posts this last week. Lemme give ya’ll a little briefing on what has been going on…

So, Pashinyan was elected as the interim Prime Minster of Armenia on the 8^th May. I had a dream that Pashinyan didn’t want to be my friend but was besties with my flat mate. I wonder where my insecurities are… LOLZ. Up until this day, my mind and body had been in stealth mode and I was focused on the eye of the tiger. #survivalofthefittest

We were extremely busy the first six weeks of our time here and I think now that the storm has passed, my body and mind are experiencing all of the emotions that I should have processed much, MUCH earlier on. All of my previous posts have been mostly focused on the positive and inspiring moments that I have had here. I think it is important for those of you who are reading this, and want to travel in the future, to know that it is not always plain sailing. But it is also important to know that it is okay, to not always be okay. When I started to feel low and cloudy, I thought “AHHH, I should be HAPPY, ECSTATIC and INCREDIBLE all of the time because this is an AmAzInG aDvEnTuRe!!!!” This is bullshit guys.
Without all of the other emotions, we cannot appreciate happiness and joy. Happiness and joy are not a default mode, we have to earn them! That’s why we feel like some hot ass damn chica’s when we get to that place.

I reviewed all of my coping mechanisms which I populated into a spreadsheet before I left. Those of you who know me well would probably say if I was a Microsoft Programme, I would be Excel. An organised system based on numbers (which are factual) which is filled with certainty and logic. I have realised I haven’t been using any of my coping methods. No wonder I am feeling glum.

Tony Robbins and Les Brown morning motivations: GIRL BYEEE!
Evidence based CBT techniques: BITCH BYEEE!
My SAD light: BYE CHICA!
Getting up at 6:30am: OOOO NO GURL

As much as I have improved within my own mental health, if you don’t keep cleaning your windows, they are going to get dirty again. Imagine what the neighbours would say! Sod the neighbours; it’s all about being able to see clearly. So from this second onward, I will commit to regularly cleaning my windows. I would like to request that you all do the same, because if we don’t there are so many incredible and breathtaking moments that we will miss out on.

In kindness,
C x